Quote of the day: "Idealism is what precedes experience; cynicism is what follows."- David T. Wolf
I guess sometimes I get a little dizzy looking at the world with constantly rolling eyes. My cynical nature grows and grows, and I'm left without even a benchmark to monitor its progress. It affects every aspect of my life, down to the very things I enjoy most. I don't even really know how to describe it.
Sometimes I can talk myself out of it, sometimes I can't. Sometimes I'm content just to chastise myself.
Sometimes, though, I'll write something. Something so seething, so hateful, so malevolent, that I can never let it see the light of day. One of these days, someone will write that to me.
I can't wait.
Thought made ready... Battle Ready... by SinisterNinja
Deirdre October 10, 2006 08:42 AM PDT I'm still lost somewhere in this post.
Don't mind me.
jenny October 9, 2006 02:32 PM PDT Huh. So you write seething hateful things. And you wonder if anyone does the same about you? Or you're ,hoping they do. :-| It was about someone? Or am I just confused, misread your post. Hrm.
There's always tomorrow, and if it's half as beautiful as today was, hopefully the negativity will be long forgotten. :D At least put aside for a while.
xoxo
spacenoodle October 8, 2006 12:45 PM PDT I know what you mean. Somtimes I feel like somebody should shake me!
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